F*ck you

Been willing away really hard
Years on end Hoping against hope
Maybe he sees this boy is fighting hard
Maybe for him to go easy there is some scope

Does he not see how much bloodshed he has already caused
Or does he not see my spiritless body almost paused
My spirit had long been crushed away
Aimlessly this ghost of a ghost ambles
Wondering if he will ultimately wither away

Just a hint of fight left in me
Still fighting away what i feel is unjustly wrong
Why me I keep asking him to say
why have you been punishing me for this long

Tons of times I call you out lemme tell you I am not meek
Its not solutions, its just inner strength I seek
Strength to get what I feel I deserve
Only for you to again me swerve

How long should I toil away
before I really prove myself to you
Or should I simply stop trying one day
Just get up in you face and say F*ck you

Been loving fights the day I was born
Battled through hurricanes, tornadoes and all kinds of storms
Now, I guess this is the ultimate fight you are asking me to partake
For me to fight my own destiny and for my controller to finally break

I promise you this challenge too I will take by
On the verge of collapsing I promise you I wont break without making you cry
Will shatter my existence but wont bend on What I know is true
Who the hell cares if I end up dead....I will still say F*ck you!!!!! (c)

Excitement

Thrills, Highs, Rushes, Somehow seeking Excitement
Where does this energy keep coming from - I am totally spent
Crazy mind, Insatiable hunger or Reckless intent
I fail to understand what on proving I am hell bent

Broken through Doors, Windows and the proverbial Glass Ceilings
Is this just an Adrenaline Rush or a highway to vent my feelings?
Been through the Good, the Bad, the Ugly and the Arcane
Felt like an Angel, a Monster, Indifferent, Insane

Sights, Sounds, Touch and Smell
Been through Heaven, Earth, In between and Hell
Met God, Satan, People with every damn thing to sell
And yet I still lie here wondering where my excitement fell?©

Condemned

Of years gone by lookin back on them to you
Of rains gone by fog inside my head tiny drops of dew
Winters through summer gone away spent alone by me
Seen a million sights already and yet these eyes haven't found what they want to see
Years have gone by and yet why has time stopped in front of me
Walked a million miles already and now again the road points to thee?

Is it no one else that I seem to find
Is there nothing else that appeals to this mind
Am I forever condemned in this tumultuous hell
Lo the devil just came but I have no soul to sell
It died the day you walked away never to look back again
Been living my life a walking lie passing away my days in vain ©